I had an interesting realization recently.
That even when we desperately want change, we can actually be resistant to it happening.
I remember, a long time ago, when I was in the throws of severe social anxiety, someone (I think it was a therapist) asked me, “What are you getting out of your anxiety?”
I think I probably looked at her like she was out of her mind, because I thought, what in the world could I be getting out of this?? It’s awful!!